Baby Ross-Storr

It all started with pains in my right side.
When thay first started i went to the doctors and at first thay said it could me my apendicks untill thay gave me a wee test and come back i wos pregnet my heart missed a beat but i was so happy deep down but had a real bad feeling about this .
A day later the pains came back and so did the bleeding so i went to the doctors and thay sent me to the hospital where thay started to do test on me thay gave me a blood test to check my hormone level and was going to repect it again in 48 hours to get a reading.
When the test came back the hormone level was quite low and did it again 24 hours later and bad new it had droped again so thay said it was a miscarriage and sent me home to rest 2 deays later i was back at the hospital with the same pain and bleeding .
Thay gave me a scan and found something in my womb but thay was happy to send me home saying it was still a miscarriage and what thay could see what just the left over blood and would right its self .
I was told the same thing twice now so i tryed to get on with my every day life but deep down i still had a feeling something wasnt right .
A week later the pain and bleedding was still there so i went back to my doctors and he sent me back to the hospital saying it could be ectopic .
when i got there the same doctor was there waiting for me telling me that i wasnt not pregnet my levels that i had done aweek befor that had come back to low and tryed telling me all kinds of things she told me to go home again but thins time befor i went home i had a wee test again and she came over to be and said its come back your still pregnet we will have to do your bloods again and then go home and we will call you tomorrow if anything comes back .
The next morning my phone rang it was the doctor could i go bak up that day for a scan at 2:30 so me and my parther went thay and again thay see what ever it was in my womb and this time thay had a good look and found my little baby there in my right tube it felf as if my life had stoped i was so up set and didnt no what was going to happen next i had to stay in and got told i was going o have the op the next day well that came and went and so did the next 3 days on the 4th day of me being in there it was time for me to let go of my little baby thay had to remove my right tube with my baby and told me thay where very sorry i shouldnt have never been left that long .
So on the 26th march i got told it was ectopic and on the 3 of april thay removed it i thought it was one big joke and thay was going to wake me up and say it was just a bad dream

Im so worried i may never have any more children iv been told its 50/50 im keeping my fingers crossed .

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we never got to meet you sweetie you was taken away from us to soon x x you will always be in mummy and daddys mind x x good nite baby x x i will tell your big sister all about it x x

Please dont cry Mummy,
Your angel is right here.
Although you cannot see me,
I can see your tears.

I visit you often,
I go to work with you each day,
And when it's time to close your eyes,
On your pillow is where I lay.

I hold your hand and stroke your hair,
And whisper in your ear.
If your sad today mummy
Remember I am here.

God took me home,
This we know is true.
But you'll always be my Mummy,
Even though I'm not with you.

Daddy please don’t look so sad,
Mommy please don’t cry...

I am your little little angel,
and we will never be apart,
For every time you think of me,
Please know I'm in your heart.
~*~

love you xxx